Every time I write something, I think, man, no one's gonna believe this.
But I write about what happens. And I know why these things - good (dates, tv shows, random meetings, free trips to Europe) and bad (dates, car accidents, insomnia, robberies), keep happening.
Because I keep trying. I keep pushing. I keep thinking I'm someone.
It is better to try and fail greatly then never try at all. And I fail all the time. Health, wealth, relationship. Every one of them is a failure - I got my arm torn out trying to fight; I got robbed of all the money I've made in 34 years; and the last one? You know...
And stupidly, I keep trying. Because I asked for all this.
Y'ever listen to 8 Mile by Eminem? There're these lines that go:
I'm just tryin to do what's best
And I try, sit alone and I cry
Yo I won't tell no lie, not a moment goes by
That I don't pray to the sky, please I'm beggin you God
Please don't let me pigeon holed in no regular job
Time for me to just stand up, and travel new lands
Time for me to just take matters in my own hands
Once I'm over these tracks, man I'ma never look back
But he told me to keep daring greatly. Cause he did. It's what we do, he said, you have to keep trying. I would only be disappointed in you if you stopped trying.
I nodded and stammered in my crappy, crappy, Chinese, I will.
Music: I got every ingredient, all I need is the courage