September 15th, 2008


If only for a while

Her: (exasperated) LOGAN! When I tell you to go out to go out and check on my friend, I don't mean make a pass at her!
Me: In my defense: (a) you weren't totally clear on that point, (b) you know what I am.
Busy weekend. New roomie moved in. Work drama My brother came to see me too; we hung out with PB, WM and Kathy for a fashion designer's party. Met a blondie that went to the same grade school as me and lives around the way. I asked her to tell me a secret and she told me a sad one.

Sunday, spoke to HEI and told her that, while I didn't lose anyone very close to me in 9/11, can't leave it behind me. And I wanna. Also spoke to Heartgirl, who said she saw a lotta street beef over the weekend. In the backa my head, thought, I can understand, a little, why there's so much rage.

Speaking of Heartgirl, a conversation with her not that long ago sparked another one with someone else from my past.

Me: I was thinking maybe...maybe you were right.
Her: Oh, Logan, I'm not. I'm sorry.I didn't mean it. All the cruel things I said.
Me: Ah...Caligirl, doesn't matter. (pause) How's married life?
Her: It's nice. (faint laughter) You should try it some time...
Me: (pause) I'm trying. I'm trying so hard...
Her: (sadly) I didn't mean...
Me: You did. (pause) It's ok. I earned it. It's only right. It's only fair.You get what you give in this life. But I hope you're wrong. Maybe you're right but I hope...
Her: (interrupting) I hope I'm wrong too. We all deserve to be happy. If only for a while.

Music: for a minute it lets me let it all go.
YASYCTAI: Drink more tea. It's like drinking weak vegetable soup. (3 mins/1 pt)