Thursday, June 4th, 2009

Something to me

Sunset over Hoboken, NJ pier
 
Sorry I've not posted in a while, been hella busy. Moving from one part of my building to another. Thought it'd be easy but it's not cause one collects a great deal of - for lack of a better word - crap in 36 years. Everything has a story to it; some stories I wanna relive, some I'd rather forget.

Suppose that's hardly news to anyone.

See that pic above? Y'might have seen it before. Love that pic for reasons only I and another person might know. My pastor once said that you don't love a picture causea the paper it's printed on. Y'love a picture for what it represents.

And yeah, I try to donate or toss as mucha my stuff as I can. But I got some ratty things that I love, not cause they're worth something, but cause they're worth some thing to me. So when the guy moving in picks something up and says, Hey can you bring the garbage over so I can toss this? I reply, Oh, gimme that, I'll toss it.

And slip it into my back pocket to put it away later, safely behind all the other crap I love, not cause it's worth something, but cause it's worth some thing to me.

A ball at 583 Park Avenue
 

Last week, went to a genuine ball. Was a fundraiser event for Helen Keller International: $1,500 a plate, auctions going for $50,000. The full nine. Sat at a table of lawyers and next to a pretty blond. $1,500 dinners are wasted on people like me; always think, man, I coulda made that better. Probably not true but it's my head, I get to think what I wanna.

Had this cool British auctioneer that was going nuts; made me wanna bid for something. Couldn't though, one trip to Umbria cost like $50K.

Managed to get semi-floated in; felt I should contribute something and I did, in my own way.

On the way there and back, got caught in the rain. It's all just peaks and valleys, isn't it?

So, y'miss me?

HKI ball at 583 Park Avenue
 

Christie's auctioneer at Helen Keller's 583 Park Avenue Gala
 

HKI Umbia auction
 

YASYCTAI: If something happened and you hadta grab something, what'd it be? (20 mins/2 pts)
Music: been looking so long at these pictures of you
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Monday, January 12th, 2009

Swept Away

Nantes, France, at dusk.

Me
: You'll meet her Friday - don't tell me what you think of her.
Him: Don't tell you?
Me: No. Cause I think she's amazing and don't wanna hear it any other way.

Friday was Paul's B-day so we headed down to our usual joint. Some shots, some rum, some conversation. The usual NYC twirl. Bumped into a curly-haired blond downtown and she said "Excuse you," with a big toothy smile. I smiled back politely but slipped out the door with Heartgirl by 1AM.

Her: Your friends are nice. I can see why you're friends with them. That's not always the case.
Me: I'm 35. (pause) Got ridda mosta the jerks by now.

Spent mosta Saturday and alla Sunday by myself. Me time is always a good time. Chatted with PCD online for a bit.

PCD: You're like an imaginary person now.
Me: I find that both funny and sad. Why is that?
Her: Because we aren't real life friends
Me: Because we never see each other? (thinking) I try to see things from Heartgirl's point of view, if there was a guy she liked a lot and saw him regularly, I'd be a little peeved. (pause) She knows I'd never cheat on her. But I also told her that you were kind and good and that kind and good people we should keep around. I do consider us real friends.
Her: I know. Just have a fun vacation, ok?

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Her: I kind of feel that I...I just got swept up in my own life. How weird is that? To get swept away by your own life?
 
At the party, met a friend that was easing into single life as I was easing out. One minute, I'm 27 and walking outta the Harbor Hotel in Beijing to a waiting car wearing Valentino and a Speedmaster. The next minute, I'm 33 and out both a girlfriend and alla my scratch. Then the next hot minute, I'm here. Telling my secrets to reeds and strangers. And thinking of a girlie I didn't know existed before 4/7/2008.

The problem with being half-asleep alla time is that reality and dreams blur. There've been plenty of times I thought something was something, but just turned out to be a lotta nuthin. Kinda wonder if this'll all just turn out to be nuthin at all. Man...that would suck.

Me: Yeah, I know what you mean.

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It's supposed to be the coldest weather here in NYC in 15 years but I'm leaving this week for sunnier climates and'll, thankfully, miss it.

I'll write when I can.

Music: I know exactly how he feels
YASYCTAI: Get ridda mosta your jerks. Screw em. (time/3 pts)
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Monday, June 23rd, 2008

Awful Things



Her: You know what? I'm not your ex. I'm me. (long pause) You've never done awful things in your life, Logan?

Get a surprising message on Friday from someone I was dating. We opted to be friends and she calls to tell me something I really don't wanna know. So, I'm disappointed in her. Then again, she called cause she needed a friend and I wasn't the friend I shoulda been.

So, I'm disappointed in me.

Go out for the usual fun and games for Friday. Some girl keeps grabbing my butt so I bounce early. Saturday, wrestled. That's a whole entry on it's own. Then I go to my cousin's wedding. Could do without everyone asking me when I'm getting married.

Orbit around Heartgirl all weekend; more misunderstandings between us. We're supposed to meet up but something comes up so she bails. Thing is, I'm slightly glad we didn't meet up cause who she is in my head might not be who she is at all.

Then again, I'm not the man they think I am at home.

Her: Hey...what are you doing up?
Me: I'm always up. I'm at 6th & A, heading home. Look...I'm calling to say that I'm sorry.
Her: Thanks. (pause) I'm really glad you called. I'm really glad.

That's WM the night before. Heartgirl wanted to watch the Eurocup so I arranged it for a friend of mine to show it at her bar. Since Heartgirl didn't come, WM came and we caught the game. And talked about our many regrets.

Paul, WM and I're great at parties. Cause the people that're really great at parties are the ones that just wanna forget the awful things.


Music: I think it's gonna be a long, long time
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Monday, June 16th, 2008

Too old



Don't think I can write anything better than I wrote last year for him.

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Her: Logan! You're too old to date so much.
Me: (sighing) Tell me about it.

It rained all weekend. Go out late Friday. Usual twirl.

Went to a BBQ Saturday with a friend from church and she and I spend the day lounging on Roosevelt Island. Lived here my whole life and have never been - the tram was out so I've still never been on that. See a purple dog and get drenched on the way back. Later that night, see HEI and her friends for drinks.

I decide to get off that online dating website cause: (a) don't have the time for it, (b) feel bad not responding to people, and (c) am tired of the disappointing and the being disappointed. So I go and delete all the emails I've gotten in the past month. But one from a pretty cake decorator stands out so I write:

My number's 917.555.4810. Why don't you text me as if we met last night so that we can say, quite honestly, that we met last night, I emailed you and then we texted back and forth for a bit. Because that's what young singltons do in the big city, I think.

She does and we do all weekend. End up grabbing coffee on Sunday.

Here's the thing: vegetarian. Not even pescatarian - full-on vegetarian. I oftentimes wonder if I'm part of some cosmic joke. But she has an easy laugh and a Georgia accent so we'll see.

Not looking forward to work - I haven't told most of you this but all my employees quit on me three weeks ago. Now one of them wants to come back.

After church on Sunday, my friend Christianne and I walk home. We're both waiting for our blue sky to come back and stay.



Music: like seein' you in my neighborhood I like the way you dress
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Monday, January 28th, 2008

9 to 6 or 6 to 9 / 25 or 6 to 4



I'm on the wrong side of 6AM when I stick my key in my door and turn to unlock it. I'm wondering what happened this weekend.

Half-an-hour earlier, I'm walking alone in the snow to the West Side Highway to catch a cab home.

An hour earlier, I'm in Guest House with Gio and Paul both gaming the same hottie. Drama. I'm too old for drama. As usual Gio floated us in and gets us a table with a bottle of vodka. Not my poison but it's comped so I take it. I chat up a group of lovely Irish actresses and girl from Kentucky that's a great dancer.

Two hours earlier, I'm in Sway being told by a girlie from Holland that I should meet her again in the hidden club at the Village. Nah.

Four hours earlier, I'm with "Clara" celebrating her birthday at Sugar. I tell her to text all my friends: Logan's all up in my grill - where are you guys? thinking they'll come save her. Nope.

Six hours earlier, I run into an old ghost from my club days. I tell him I'm a Christian and don't run hustle or sweatboxes any more. I don't think he believed me. He woulda never have believed I got grifted.

Seven hours earlier, I'm speaking crappy German and Chinese to Benlbr at The Back Room where John McEnroe slipped past me. Ben and I are on our own tight schedules but it's good to meet up.

Eight hours earlier, I'm stepping into Bar 151 with Paul to see Kung, the Grey-Eyed Girl and Randi. Two girls smile at me but I demur to saying hello. I'm on a schedule.

I'm on the wrong side of 9PM when I stick my key in my door and turn to lock it. I'm wondering what'll happen this weekend.

Music: Searching for something to say; Waiting for the break of day
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