logan607 ([info]logan607) wrote,
@ 2008-06-23 07:57:00
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Current location:my bed
Current mood: tired
Entry tags:dating, dialogue, long walk home, single life, usual twirl

Awful Things



Her: You know what? I'm not your ex. I'm me. (long pause) You've never done awful things in your life, Logan?

Get a surprising message on Friday from someone I was dating. We opted to be friends and she calls to tell me something I really don't wanna know. So, I'm disappointed in her. Then again, she called cause she needed a friend and I wasn't the friend I shoulda been.

So, I'm disappointed in me.

Go out for the usual fun and games for Friday. Some girl keeps grabbing my butt so I bounce early. Saturday, wrestled. That's a whole entry on it's own. Then I go to my cousin's wedding. Could do without everyone asking me when I'm getting married.

Orbit around Heartgirl all weekend; more misunderstandings between us. We're supposed to meet up but something comes up so she bails. Thing is, I'm slightly glad we didn't meet up cause who she is in my head might not be who she is at all.

Then again, I'm not the man they think I am at home.

Her: Hey...what are you doing up?
Me: I'm always up. I'm at 6th & A, heading home. Look...I'm calling to say that I'm sorry.
Her: Thanks. (pause) I'm really glad you called. I'm really glad.

That's WM the night before. Heartgirl wanted to watch the Eurocup so I arranged it for a friend of mine to show it at her bar. Since Heartgirl didn't come, WM came and we caught the game. And talked about our many regrets.

Paul, WM and I're great at parties. Cause the people that're really great at parties are the ones that just wanna forget the awful things.


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[info]humanfemale
2008-06-23 12:12 pm UTC (link)
That's such a cool picture. Of the foot licking.

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[info]logan607
2008-06-23 03:59 pm UTC (link)
Thanks - there was actually a lot of that going on for some reason.

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[info]benlbr
2008-06-23 01:03 pm UTC (link)
i hope the floor was clean.

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[info]logan607
2008-06-23 04:00 pm UTC (link)
Luckily, I was only the photographer, rather than an active participant.

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[info]loki
2008-06-23 04:24 pm UTC (link)
Having done that once or twice (at a company Xmas party no less) I can safely assure you you only lick the top of the foot.

The bottom of said foot is reserved for more ..private.. lickings.

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[info]ebayer
2008-06-23 01:55 pm UTC (link)
Apparently, fun times!

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[info]logan607
2008-06-23 04:03 pm UTC (link)
Indeed - it's not a bad life to lead, at times.

At times, most things are that bad, I don't think.

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[info]aranka
2008-06-23 02:59 pm UTC (link)
Haha. Tell me that was just a friend. =P

Never had an interest that things turned out friendly with. Ever. And . . . I'm frustrated because I hear of people who do, but relationships seem to exist in this nebulous otherworld. All these silly rules like, "if you've known her for a year you'll never be more than friends" crap. But then there's also this nebulous respect issue too. IMO lovers should be best friends and should respect each other as such. Which is why I don't understand one night stands. How can you sleep with someone who you know doesn't have your back. But then every interest I've had mutual or otherwise has always put me at the bottom of the pile after all his friends. I guess if you get emotionally invested and it doesn't work out its a huge blow to the ego but . . . I can't help but think if you respect your lovers like you respect your friends they should stay friends even if it doesn't work out. Not knowing much more than what you write here I then have to ask you, do you respect the girls you date? Not like I won't still like you if you answer no. I haven't met a man yet who does.

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[info]logan607
2008-06-23 04:20 pm UTC (link)
Well, that's not me in the picture so she and I are def. just friends.

You've got a lot of questions but let me answer this one first:
do you respect the girls you date?

That strikes me as such an odd question because how on earth would I date them if I didn't respect them?

Put another way, I don't like angry liberals. So I'm not ever sitting down to brunch with them. I'm so pressed for time as it is, that I don't have time for anyone I don't actually want a relationship with. And I don't want a relationship with someone I don't trust.

On a different point entirely, a very good friend told me that the one constant in my screwy relationship was...well, me.

So I'm a work in progress.

Here's the thing: What if, maybe, it's partly your fault as well. Here's a simple question: Are you fun?

Are you a fun person to be around? Cause life is hard enough as it is without the person you're all into a sad Sally all the time.

I'm not saying all the time fun, like a clown. But are you generally just optimistic and positive? Because that plus a pretty face is like crack for most men.

And if someone's fun and loyal, yes, I wanna keep them in my life for a long time.

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[info]girlsgirlsgirls
2008-06-23 05:31 pm UTC (link)
you think you're joe pesci all of a sudden?

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[info]aranka
2008-06-23 09:21 pm UTC (link)
how on earth would I date them if I didn't respect them?
You would think that but . . . I've seen a shitton of one-sided relationships. I don't want that either. It just strikes me that in a relationship people tend to put their boyfriend or girlfriend after their friends. They'll do stuff for their friends that for the SO would go on the "now you owe me" list. I dunno if that's just SoCal where I've observed most of this crap but I have an idea that all this drama could all be avoided if people were friendly towards the one they oestensibly love. Hence why I ask you. I get the impression you're a decent guy but my general observations would suggest that decency in character has nothing to do with love and war. So if it's true that you respect your ladies then the drama cannot be avoided. Otherwise people just suck.

Yeah I originally attributed my bad luck with guys as a consequence of my own personality and past experience; but while I still think I'm generally attracted to abusive men I'm actually not a bad person. You get a kinda skewed view of me with the lj because this is my angst dump. Hence the complete lack of friends on it and all the whining. But attracting guys has never been a problem. I typically have at least one stalker a year. I truly am guy crack. The problem I think is that they want fun, smart, and pretty but never accept that that means I might not want to quit school for them or let them make all the decisions. So the minute I present them with a multidimensional character they either go stalker, emo, or just get really pissed off. So thusfar my self diagnosis is that I deal with things poorly to begin with and tend to go for men who aren't going to treat me right anyway in the second.

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[info]loki
2008-06-23 04:23 pm UTC (link)
I guess if you get emotionally invested and it doesn't work out its a huge blow to the ego but . . . I can't help but think if you respect your lovers like you respect your friends they should stay friends even if it doesn't work out.

I think the difference there is that with lovers comes a greater capacity to hurt and be hurt, while friends have a greater capacity to forgive and forget.

While the two conditions are not mutually exclusive, they don't tend to occupy the same space (capacity to be hurt and forgive).

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[info]aranka
2008-06-23 09:36 pm UTC (link)
I getcha, but here's the thing. Not to be a collosal geek or anything but significant others get a +2 for both damage and healing. So . . . I'm not exactly the best person to be talking about relationships given that I've been slapped around a bit, but the entire reason that shit works is that if you want to heal a great pain you will probably go to the one person who can make it happen really fast regardless of whether or not that person did it in the first place. So . . . yeah it hurts but this is the same person who supposedly from time to time makes you feel better about yourself, no? So to me it seems forgive and forget and all other aspects of friendship would be second nature. Cynical as I can be, I'm really down for unconditional love and I don't think anyone who's not willing to make that their goal should bother with a relationship. That doesn't mean some people don't work its just if you're totally cool with throwing away your SO the minute s/he gives you an owie, that kinda makes you a douche. And I see this shit constantly. Hence why I asked him the heavy question. It all seems incongruous.

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[info]rianessa
2008-06-23 03:24 pm UTC (link)
Fun picture. Fun times. Not so fun moments.

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[info]logan607
2008-06-23 04:20 pm UTC (link)
Story of my life.

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[info]rianessa
2008-06-23 10:01 pm UTC (link)
Gotta love it right? You only get one life...and so far it looks like you're living it to the fullest.

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[info]girlsgirlsgirls
2008-06-23 05:30 pm UTC (link)
I can relate.

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apparently...
[info]girlsgirlsgirls
2008-06-23 05:31 pm UTC (link)
I need to drink more, though.

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