logan607 ([info]logan607) wrote,
@ 2008-05-23 00:03:00
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Current location:my childhood bed
Current mood: wicked once again
Entry tags:dialogue, regret, story

Armed and Dangerous


Me: There are three types of people in the world. Single, sorta single and not single.
Her: Not true, there's a fourth.
Me: (puzzled) Really, what's that?
Her: (laughing and flashing a ring on her left hand) An MBA - Married But Available.

We all carry our homemade weapons with us. The everyday items that, when against the wall, we flick out and stab others with.

My intellect instantly becomes arrogance; wit, sarcasm; focus, aggression. Faster than the blink of a teary eye. It's parta why I don't curse - that's just gas on a fire.

At some point in every relationship, you got that split-second choice on whether or not to draw those weapons. Once those daggers come out, man, there's no going back. There's no putting toothpaste back inna tube.

A monster, No. 6 once said of me. We'd such a bloody end; I said things no one should ever say. Then again, so did she. Just spoke to her not that long ago. My fine handiwork's still in her voice.

Cause I'm the skillest with my sharp objects. The killest with my blunt instruments.

Every fencer knows to take care when drawing. Cause you're always just as likely to cut yourself as your adversary. I don't recall a time I ever drew first and didn't cut myself more. Not once. And I'm never unarmed.

The skillest and killest. It's a horrid gift.

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A different girlie:

Her: Hey Logan. (pause) I'd like to be friends. I think we could be friends.
Me: I'd really like that.

Music: another evil force tellin' me to do what I gotta do
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[info]so_yun
2008-05-23 04:37 am UTC (link)
What an interesting post! Rings true. Reminds me of something I heard in a sermon...

Anyway, I rarely curse too. but when i say it, i really mean it.

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[info]logan607
2008-05-23 02:04 pm UTC (link)
When I do curse, I mean it at the time - but then I regret it, usually.

Not always, but usually.

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[info]girlsgirlsgirls
2008-05-23 06:48 am UTC (link)
I'd like to be friends.

I don't know about the stuff after that.

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[info]logan607
2008-05-23 02:04 pm UTC (link)
I know what you mean, I know what you mean.

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[info]koreanjohnny
2008-05-23 07:07 am UTC (link)
I don't think i'm ever going to stop reading, I actually like to just sit and read your older entries when I have the time.
Congrats on the new friend, I love making new friends. Especially the ones that matter, you know?
All in all, I hope things are going well, it's always a good read.

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[info]logan607
2008-05-23 02:05 pm UTC (link)
Sweet - that, plus the weather (plus it being Friday), just made my day. Thanks!

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[info]koreanjohnny
2008-05-24 01:17 am UTC (link)
Of course, it was spoken as truth :)

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[info]aranka
2008-05-23 09:45 am UTC (link)
Hehehe. That's a great analogy. I have this theory that absolutely everything is in all actuality some sort of fight. That's why self-absorbed people always get really far . . . but then fall hard. You can't fight unless you empathize with opponent. You can't dance unless your partner is your entire world. And you can't have a relationship without thinking about what the other person might want out of you and life.

But yeah. Swords cut good. One time I drew right through the sheath into the palm of my hand. Even now there's still a mark. That was literal but . . . I guess I've done it metaphorically too.

This is funny but I used to wish I was a sociopath. Now I'm of the opinion that it would be cool for a while but I'd end up being eminently frusterated at the inability to understand other human beings.

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[info]logan607
2008-05-23 02:06 pm UTC (link)
You are one strange chick. S'ok, most of my female friends are a bit strange.

Let me know if you decide to go the sociopath route, I'll just stay on the right side of the country if you do.

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[info]aranka
2008-05-23 08:10 pm UTC (link)
As are most of my male friends. But would it really be any fun if you could predict what's coming next?

Aw. Sociopaths aren't all inherently murderers you know. I know a few. But they are all bad. Scratch that. Yeah, if I do that you can stay on the other side of the country.

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[info]benlbr
2008-05-23 11:49 am UTC (link)
i've been guilty of wrecking a home or two (or three).

not my fault, really. i really tried not to get involved, i really did...

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[info]logan607
2008-05-23 02:08 pm UTC (link)
Jeez! I've been asked but never tempted. There are too many single women out there in the world as it is and there's only 24 hours in a day.

A boy's gotta find some time to eat.

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[info]benlbr
2008-05-23 03:17 pm UTC (link)
there are some "technically married but going through divorce" ones out there, which i guess would be open game....but then again, why the heck would they still be wearing their wedding ring, right?

and by your definition, single=unmarried...which would include co-habitating couples, no? lol.

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[info]sabatoa
2008-05-23 12:02 pm UTC (link)
Wow, how do you respond to something like the MBA woman said. I mean seriously. I don't know how I'd react. You meet some crazy interesting people.

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[info]logan607
2008-05-23 02:11 pm UTC (link)
It turns out that she was just joking - her ring was too large to wear on any other finger than that. I told her that it was a man repellent and she said she did ok and that she didn't mind.

Funny, right?

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[info]petiteendocrine
2008-05-23 07:22 pm UTC (link)
Your writing is lovely.

x Lucy

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[info]logan607
2008-05-23 08:00 pm UTC (link)
Thanks Lucy, I try.

Hope you keep reading...

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[info]seemoore
2008-05-23 10:37 pm UTC (link)
Ay, this resonates with me so much. Along this trip I've been noticing more and more how and how often I use those weapons -- I think traveling brings out my bad side (my weapons, coincidentally, are very similar to yours). I'm just beginning to learn how not to use them. You're so right, once your cards on are the table...

How do you resist? How do you stop yourself?

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[info]seemoore
2008-05-23 10:38 pm UTC (link)
Also, I've met WAY too many married/taken-but-unhappy women (and, oddly enough, the few men in my life have also fallen under that category). I wonder why...

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[info]logan607
2008-05-24 01:33 am UTC (link)
By knowing how much I'll hate myself if I don't. I've got a whole blog of self-loathing.

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[info]sometimessome
2008-05-24 06:32 am UTC (link)
My verbal skills are always my strongest weapon. Recently I realized that my whole life is judged by whether I win or lose. I feel I win when I can tear you down with only words. My family says I'm agressive and confrontational. But my friends just say I'm nasty. I've tried to stop being so verbally vindictive and I think I'm winning the war, but sometimes the battle goes to the loser.

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[info]logan607
2008-05-29 01:46 pm UTC (link)
the battle goes to the loser

I find this very true...

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