logan607 ([info]logan607) wrote,
@ 2008-05-16 15:39:00
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Current location:in my office, looking at the rain and thinking
Current mood: grateful
Entry tags:dialogue, discussion, family, troubles

No troubles



Met a girlie last week.

Her: I think I have you beat.
Me: I doubt that.
Her: (deep breath) Well, when I was in high school, my prom date raped me, got me pregnant, and, causa my dad, I got married causa it. Then I had a miscarriage so I was a divorcee before I went to college. He divorced me - can you believe that? Moved here, became a model. Now I throw up at least once a day so I can pay my rent and I hate, hate, hate men of every type. Can you beat that?
Me: (shaking head, pause, lean in and give her a kiss on the cheek)
Her: Why did you do that?
Me: I dunno...thought you deserved it. (she laughed, then frowned and nodded)

Didn't give her my number or ask for her's, and paid for her drink, which I never do.

There's this comedian that says that children are a man's receipt; children are the canceled check that proves that we were here.

The stuff you hear about happening in China is horrifying, isn't it? 22,000 to 50,000 dead with 169,000 injured. But it's actually even worse than that. With the PRC's One Child Policy, bloodlines and family lose everything. For those that lose their one child and they're too old to have kids again, they've no safety net to take care of them in their old age. Their history ends with them; they've no connection to the future. They've no child to love. Can't imagine how that must feel.

My father once said that he loved us all before we were born. That didn't make sense back then.

I'm getting sued (again). I'm working 12 hour days for negative returns. There's stuff I don't tell you about. But really, I got no problems. I got my life, my family, my rum, and the occasional girlie for company.

It's raining here, but in my head, there're blue skies. Told you before, yeah? God gave me everything.

Hope you have an amazing weekend.

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[info]either_or
2008-05-16 08:10 pm UTC (link)
::sigh::

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[info]logan607
2008-05-16 11:28 pm UTC (link)
Yes, my thoughts exactly.

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[info]friseurfrau
2008-05-16 08:29 pm UTC (link)
That story of the girl is really sad. I don't know what I would have said back!
Drink some rum for me, will ya?

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[info]logan607
2008-05-16 11:29 pm UTC (link)
Goodness, Tiff - I drink enough rum for everyone!

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[info]friseurfrau
2008-05-18 03:39 pm UTC (link)
my reply would be just the same.
THOUGH I am switching to wine a lot these days.
Good ol Germany

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[info]peeachness
2008-05-16 08:40 pm UTC (link)
You're pretty amazing. Have a great weekend as well.

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[info]logan607
2008-05-16 11:30 pm UTC (link)
I don't think that was deserved but it's Friday so I'll take it gladly and hope we both have a great weekend.

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[info]benlbr
2008-05-16 08:53 pm UTC (link)
gosh, i didn't even take into consideration of the 1 child policy. that makes it 1000000x worse...

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[info]logan607
2008-05-16 11:30 pm UTC (link)
Yeah, it's so, so bad. I can't imagine, brother, and I don't want to...

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[info]in_a_silver_bag
2008-05-16 09:09 pm UTC (link)
You have an amazing one too. But then you always do. Most of the time.

Your blue skies reminded me of a picture I took a little while ago. Here, have some more:

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[info]logan607
2008-05-16 11:33 pm UTC (link)
Schoen, danke sehr...das Wetter ist ja furchtbar hier aber dein Foto ist perfekt.

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[info]gennesis
2008-05-16 11:15 pm UTC (link)
does it help to know you are loved by a stranger a quarter of a world away?

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[info]logan607
2008-05-16 11:33 pm UTC (link)
Very much, thank you, very much.

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[info]so_yun
2008-05-16 11:19 pm UTC (link)
so... am i assuming correctly that you don't pay for girls' drinks b/c you don't care to get to know a girl whose aim is to get a guy to pay for their drink?

just curious. =)

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[info]logan607
2008-05-16 11:34 pm UTC (link)
Exactly but there's more. I wrote a post about it but haven't had a chance to put it up yet.

I will.

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[info]kudzublossom
2008-05-16 11:20 pm UTC (link)
you seem to be very insightful for a kid.
I'm still chewing on the "your a brick wall" mantra.

As for not having a child to love, they always will. Just the expected future of their life has radically changed. Dunno, hope that made sense....I just feel sooo for the families trying wrap their heads around this.

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[info]logan607
2008-05-16 11:36 pm UTC (link)
Out of everyone that reads me, you know better than anyone, I think.

You're right, of course. It's heartbreaking and I think you're a far stronger person than me.

Have a lovely weekend, yes?

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[info]daiseefut
2008-05-16 11:32 pm UTC (link)
What's happened in China and Burma puts a whole new perspective on life, doesn't it? Makes our troubles so much smaller.

My father once said that he loved us all before we were born.

It's true, it's true.

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[info]logan607
2008-05-16 11:58 pm UTC (link)
I don't think I actually have any problems, really.

I think a lot of parents, and parents to be, think that. Maybe not every one of them, but a lot of them.

I think I think that.

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[info]mary_lennox
2008-05-17 12:09 am UTC (link)
Good luck with the 'getting sued again' thing - doesn't that get you down sometimes?

At least you love your job!

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[info]logan607
2008-05-17 04:58 pm UTC (link)
It does, but I try to not let it.

I def. do not love my job - I'm good at it but it's not what I would do if I was given the choice to do it all over again.

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[info]mary_lennox
2008-05-17 06:45 pm UTC (link)
Ooh, out of curiosity - what would you do?

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[info]chainsawhoney
2008-05-17 12:11 am UTC (link)
Is it bad I didn't know about the stuff in China and Burma until this morning? I hope it doesn't make me seem ignorant.
It IS very sad, though. :/

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[info]logan607
2008-05-17 04:59 pm UTC (link)
That's ok, but one should read the latest headlines in the morning, if only to make sure that you know what you need to know for the days ahead.

Isn't it sad? These things really put everything else into perspective.

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[info]aranka
2008-05-17 05:25 am UTC (link)
heh. yeah. Never engage a girl in a misery contest. Even the one's who tell you you win are laughing at you behind their smiles. Those of us who weren't raped by our own fathers typically get kicked around by some other asshole somewhere or another. It doesn't come out because no one wants to hear about that, but I don't think I've ever met a girl who wasn't. Sad but true. Don't be that guy. Your father sounds cool though. I always wonder about that. So many bad guys in the world and so many good guys. I wonder what percentage of you is good and what is bad. I propose all men wear neon signs declaring them good or bad so I don't have to figure it out for myself.

As for China . . . yeah. If I had any great ideas I'd offer them but all I have is emotive human rights stuff. There are just too many conflicting interests involving power and money for people without power and money to keep their lives. Again, sad but true. If you come up with a method of dealing with it that involves neither shrugging and ignoring or dedicating your life to stuff that won't make a difference anyway lemme know.

I like rain. It makes me happy. Also, wet. Glad you're happy despite the dumb though.

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[info]logan607
2008-05-17 05:01 pm UTC (link)
I'll take that under advisement regarding the misery game.

As for the neon sign, unfortunately, that didn't pass committee. Instead, you'll just have to do it the traditional way, which is to meet as many people as possible, be slightly guarded and hopeful.

There really isn't another way.

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[info]prodigallyyours
2008-05-17 06:01 am UTC (link)
this entry's an example of why I think you're a stand up kind of guy.

all the little (and big) stuff get to you and you always have your eyes set on blue skies.

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[info]logan607
2008-05-17 05:02 pm UTC (link)
I would hate for us to ever meet and you to find out what type of person I really am. For now, I'll take the compliment, thank you.

I have blue skies today. I'm excited.

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[info]ex_humanfema327
2008-05-17 10:12 am UTC (link)
she married the man that raped her? or did i misunderstand?

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[info]logan607
2008-05-17 05:03 pm UTC (link)
Evidently - I'm not that sure but she made it seem as such. She was only a teenager and...well, I suppose that's her story to tell.

It's sad regardless of how you slice it.

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[info]therussianbride
2008-05-17 12:32 pm UTC (link)
you are getting sued? is that something that will be an issue in our marriage?

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[info]logan607
2008-05-17 05:03 pm UTC (link)
I am - these things come up fairly constantly.

I don't think it'll be an issue in our marriage, at least I don't expect it to. Then again, who knows what time and tide will bring our way?

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[info]veijukka
2008-05-17 02:15 pm UTC (link)
We were talking about China and Mynamar last night and thinking the same thing. It's so devastating and so sad...and you feel so useless. But I'm also feeling incredibly grateful...like you, I've got no problems. I've got my family, my friends (and I have really good friends), my cats and my work. I've got lots to feel hopeful about.

Enjoy the rum!

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[info]logan607
2008-05-17 05:04 pm UTC (link)
I've got lots to feel hopeful about too, I think - good friends are so important.

I always enjoy the rum!

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[info]gracelizard
2008-05-19 02:26 am UTC (link)
I like this entry. smirk

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[info]logan607
2008-05-19 11:23 pm UTC (link)
I like it too. smile.

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[info]houses7177
2008-05-21 09:20 pm UTC (link)
I hadn't thought of the one child effects. How devastating all over again.

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[info]logan607
2008-05-22 02:20 pm UTC (link)
Isn't it just horrible. My heart goes out to them.

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