logan607 ([info]logan607) wrote,
@ 2008-03-05 00:08:00
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Current location:22:00 yest, Rego Park
Current mood: hopeful
Entry tags:depression, dialogue, discussion, faith, family

Grace and Mercy



Him: The fine is $2,000 a day for non-compliance.
Me: (coughing) You either gotta kill me and sell my body parts a nickel a shot, or we've gotta work something out.
Him: (laughing) We don't have a department for that type of collection. (pause) I can give you two more days. Can you be in compliance by then?
Me: (nodding) Hell or high water.

Do y'know the difference between Grace and Mercy? They're two sides of the same coin.
  • Grace is when you get the good things you don't deserve.
  • Mercy is when you don't get the bad things you do deserve.
Been posting less these days - cause I've never been into ranty posts. I did call my brother about two days ago, though. Guess something in my voice worried him. Or maybe mom told him about my shaking. Dunno.

Today I was running around all morning, having one unpleasant meeting after another, before I finally made it to my office.

And there sat my brother.

He dropped everything and took the 7AM flight outta Florida. I was in the hood, thought I'd see you, he joked. Then he looked down for a moment and asked, You ok?

Outside, my three employees were working, my partner was in her office, and I had clients waiting. I said it before, the words that'll make a grown man cry are, I'm on my way. Just showing up's even better.

But a boss weeping in his office doesn't do anyone any good. So instead, I coughed, cleared my throat, frowned and nodded. He got it.

Later that night he and his friend Kathy had dinner with my folks, laughed, and sang about two American kids growing up in this heartland on the road home.

Today I got mercy from a total stranger and grace from my earliest memory.

Yes, I said honestly, I'm ok, now.

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[info]gravi_d
2008-03-05 05:39 am UTC (link)
long time lurker, first-time poster.

i must say that entry was beautiful.

and i hope things are looking up for you.

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[info]logan607
2008-03-05 02:43 pm UTC (link)
Thanks for the comment, I'm glad you liked it.

How'd you find me, anywho?

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[info]gravi_d
2008-03-05 03:13 pm UTC (link)
from Rain's blog, I think... it's been quite a while so I can't even remember.

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[info]constellajen
2008-03-05 05:52 am UTC (link)
I have a strong pull towards feeling on the side of you'd do the same for him. Leaving me with: You received what you deserved. You received what you needed. It's not called grace. It's called love. Breath it in peacefully. Balance(I'll never stop reminding you).

P.S. The photo: Too adorable. Honestly.

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(Anonymous)
2008-03-05 08:07 am UTC (link)
that's beautiful.

m.

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[info]constellajen
2008-03-06 06:58 am UTC (link)
Thank you kindly and sincerely;)

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[info]logan607
2008-03-05 02:45 pm UTC (link)
I was looking for a good pic to post with this entry and I found this one so I went and put it up.

It really is how I still picture myself sometimes.

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[info]veijukka
2008-03-05 06:58 am UTC (link)
Right on about mercy and grace...and also love.

There's nothing like the love of brothers.

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[info]logan607
2008-03-05 02:45 pm UTC (link)
Or family for that matter. I think I am lucky for my family. Reading blogs, I find that a good family life is harder to come across than one might imagine.

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[info]veijukka
2008-03-05 03:31 pm UTC (link)
I agree. I'm very lucky, too.

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[info]daiseefut
2008-03-05 07:04 am UTC (link)
That was a sweet post. Such simple words, but they speak so clearly about your relationship with your brother. That is a CUTE picture!!

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[info]logan607
2008-03-05 02:47 pm UTC (link)
Yes, family (good family) is the type that says I'm on my way - or just comes.

I like the pic too, thanks.

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(Anonymous)
2008-03-05 08:09 am UTC (link)
Is that you in the pic? If so, you were 1 yr old in there? You look pretty big/mature for a 1 yr old. ^_^

m.

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[info]logan607
2008-03-05 02:47 pm UTC (link)
Yes, I'm the middle munchkin.

I told you all before, deep down, I'm a fatty-fat-fat...

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(Anonymous)
2008-03-06 06:44 am UTC (link)
Oops. You're the one in the middle? I thought you're the one on the right. No wonder I thought you looked big! haha

... and I thought the one in the middle's a girl... ^_~

m.

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[info]sabatoa
2008-03-05 12:48 pm UTC (link)
Ah, what an beautiful post. I wish I could follow it up with a poignant comment.

I'll stick to the simplicity that I can handle; I'm glad that you received the support you needed and I hope it's enough to carry you through.

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[info]logan607
2008-03-05 02:49 pm UTC (link)
Simple is always the best.

Has anyone ever told you that you look like an American?

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[info]sabatoa
2008-03-05 02:51 pm UTC (link)
As do you my friend :)

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[info]logan607
2008-03-05 02:53 pm UTC (link)
Thank you, brother.

We are just two American kids growing up in this heartland, after all.

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[info]parwati
2008-03-05 02:17 pm UTC (link)
:)

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[info]logan607
2008-03-05 02:50 pm UTC (link)
=)

He's great, isn't he?

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[info]seemoore
2008-03-05 02:54 pm UTC (link)
That post was almost as touching as that photograph. Or maybe it's the other way around.

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[info]logan607
2008-03-05 04:52 pm UTC (link)
I thought the two worked well together - thanks.

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[info]in_a_silver_bag
2008-03-05 04:24 pm UTC (link)
Such a beautiful post and a great story. That’s a lot to hold on to.

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[info]logan607
2008-03-05 04:52 pm UTC (link)
It is a lot; it's probably the only way to make it through this life.

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[info]bedlover
2008-03-05 05:01 pm UTC (link)
the photo is amazing.

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[info]logan607
2008-03-05 08:38 pm UTC (link)
Thanks! Photoshop is just a gem.

Most of our clothes were donated or made by my grandmother. I thought we looked rather stylish, all things considered.

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[info]houses7177
2008-03-05 05:42 pm UTC (link)
That's a fascinating distinction between Grace and Mercy. Made me think. I like things that make me think.

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[info]logan607
2008-03-05 08:38 pm UTC (link)
I'm glad I made you think; it's a good distinction IMHO...

Heya (again)!

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[info]junco513
2008-03-05 09:47 pm UTC (link)
Did you say you used to be a writer? Did you ever publish anything? You write so beautifully. You can take a lot of your posts and compile it into some kind of novel or novella.

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[info]logan607
2008-03-06 01:46 am UTC (link)
It went:

- Ruthless businessman
- Writer
- Ruthless businessman

I'm hoping to get back to "Writer" again soon.

Thanks for the vote of confidence!

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[info]rianessa
2008-03-06 06:43 pm UTC (link)
Why don't you become a ruthless businessman writer? Multitasking isn't so bad these days. =P

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sweet entry
[info]anf322
2008-03-06 12:16 am UTC (link)
hope all is well, friend. take care of yourself. :)

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[info]logan607
2008-03-06 01:47 am UTC (link)
Everything is OK - neither great nor terrible.

Waiting, waiting, waiting...

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(Anonymous)
2008-03-06 12:24 am UTC (link)
You're very fortunate to have such a wonderful and beautiful support system :)

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[info]logan607
2008-03-06 01:47 am UTC (link)
Thank you very much, I like to think so...

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[info]turtle5485
2008-03-06 05:48 am UTC (link)
damn you are a cute kid!

i remember learning the meaning of grace in my teens when i was about to get baptized. and remembering that it was the best things my ears ever heard.

glad you are OK

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[info]prodigallyyours
2008-03-10 05:24 am UTC (link)
brothers are wonderful.

I think I'll call mine and see if he's doing ok.

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