logan607 ([info]logan607) wrote,
@ 2007-08-15 00:16:00
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Entry tags:change, depression, hope, logan video, single life, story

Black Swan


A Black Swan is an unforeseen event that makes a huge historical impact. The assassination of Franz Ferdinand, 9/11, and the rise of dot coms are considered Black Swans.

But we all have our own personal Black Swans, yeah? Those events that changed everything about our lives completely unexpectedly?

No 6 moved out a year ago this week.

I recorded the above video for my brother after I got back from Baltimore and saw that she, and all her stuff, was gone (nothing risqué; trust me, totally SFW).

I used the spatula to make myself a peanut butter and orange marmalade sandwich. I sat in my empty living room and thought, Well, this is gonna suck. And it did. Really bad.

But it doesn't anymore. When I do think of a girl, she's not the one I think of. I never woulda believed it.

Time and tide changes everything.

Note to self: If you ever live with a chick again, do not throw out your utensils just because her's matches.

Life is good.

Music: My heart was broke, my head was sore, what a feeling
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[info]0utre
2007-08-15 05:53 am UTC (link)
see... Im trying really hard to sympathize with you, but its hard while I am staring at your prefect collarbone and neck and all I want to do is nibble on it.

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[info]logan607
2007-08-15 01:11 pm UTC (link)
I've gotta get to where you are.

BTW, I set up my parents TiVo to record the Discovery Channel ocean show but that's when it decided to die on me after 6 years. I was gonna post about it at some point.

=)

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[info]general_j0y
2007-08-15 05:53 am UTC (link)
Never ever trust a girl with matching utensils. And if those utensils match the plates that match the glasses that match her lipstick, RUN.

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[info]0utre
2007-08-15 05:57 am UTC (link)
haha sage advice.

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[info]logan607
2007-08-15 01:11 pm UTC (link)
Yeah, that's really sage advice, I'll follow it.

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[info]mary_lennox
2007-08-15 06:14 am UTC (link)
Ooh - that's so wrong, my sympathies for your past self. :(

(By the way, that just happens to be my favorite way to make a pbj sandwich. What are the odds?)

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[info]logan607
2007-08-15 01:12 pm UTC (link)
I like jams too but marmalade is the way to go.

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[info]turtle5485
2007-08-15 06:25 am UTC (link)
that's it, she just left? now I'm curious to know how anyone does that. but hey, i'm glad it's a year later and she's not the one you think of.

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[info]logan607
2007-08-15 01:13 pm UTC (link)
No, we had arranged for it to happen while I was in Baltimore but it was still quite a shock to come back and see that everything was just...gone!

It was a rough week, that's for sure.

And thanks - so when you gonna update about your life?

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[info]0lorenita0
2007-08-15 06:59 am UTC (link)
did she make you throw out ur utensils?

its weird to look back ay.. at the time you feel like things will never get better then you look now and its like.. ahh shit it god better! :)

glad u can look back and not think of her.

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[info]logan607
2007-08-15 01:15 pm UTC (link)
I actually threw them out myself because they were utensils I've had since college!

I know what you mean about thinking it'll never get better - it always somehow does, doesn't it?

Hello! =)

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[info]mittenhat
2007-08-15 07:17 am UTC (link)
pour toi: http://download.yousendit.com/811065CF0E7045FA

there are expletives though. just thought i oughta let you know.

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[info]logan607
2007-08-15 01:15 pm UTC (link)
Thanks - listening to it now!

You coming out this weekend?

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[info]stickles
2007-08-15 07:30 am UTC (link)
When you're in that place, the place where nothing can get worse (and yet it does), that light at the end of the tunnel is always so damned far away. It's only this year-later hindsight that makes you go, hey, I DID make it somehow. I do like that latter feeling but I'd rather avoid the former if I can. :D

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[info]logan607
2007-08-15 01:16 pm UTC (link)
Like I said, it always seems to come, doesn't it?

But MAN, it seems to take forever.

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oh @#$%!
[info]gennesis
2007-08-15 07:35 am UTC (link)
black swans. now i know what to call it.

two days ago, he just walked away and that was that--my high school sweetheart.

excuse me while i go cry myself to sleep now.

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[info]logan607
2007-08-15 01:17 pm UTC (link)
Go cry. Then make yourself a PB&J. You'll cry less each day, then all of a sudden a lot more.

Then it gets better. It just does. That's what happens. If you read my older posts, you'll see what happens to me.

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[info]caffeineguy
2007-08-15 08:41 am UTC (link)
sounds brutal - and yet somehow i appreciate that she amputated herself so quickly and completely from the relationship. unless that was not the case.

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[info]logan607
2007-08-15 01:18 pm UTC (link)
She cut it clean and quick - but only at the end. It took two months to get there.

That part was agony.

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[info]either_or
2007-08-20 05:57 am UTC (link)
i once took a year to do that.

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[info]ly_ph78
2007-08-15 09:03 am UTC (link)
I knew there had to be some reason why you post here. Ah....eases the pain.

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[info]ly_ph78
2007-08-15 09:29 am UTC (link)
Well, if u were a person that I was going out with I wud certainly be proud of ur achievements :)

ha, ha.....freudian slip :P

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[info]logan607
2007-08-15 01:19 pm UTC (link)
Yes, this is why I post here.

And thanx! - I'll file that away for future reference!

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[info]xbrokenx
2007-08-15 11:22 am UTC (link)
i hate to say it, but you made me giggle a little. :D

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[info]logan607
2007-08-15 01:20 pm UTC (link)
It's actually a sanitized version I made that same time because the first was funnier but expletive-filled.

I worried my brother would post it.

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[info]artgeek78
2007-08-15 11:56 am UTC (link)
I shouldn't laugh. I really shouldn't. But you're just so damned genuine about it all...it's kind of funny.

My live-in BF and I are on the outs. My utensils certainly don't match, but they are mine; I brought them into the relationship, and I will leave with them. However, I'll be sure I leave him a butter knife or two, just because of this video.

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[info]logan607
2007-08-15 01:22 pm UTC (link)
I'm glad you found it funny.

And dammit leave him a butter knife, fork and spoon! Man, I ate out for a few days just to amass enough plastic utensils to last me a few days...

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[info]whiskeychick
2007-08-15 01:52 pm UTC (link)
What a brillant piece of video work. I mean, I know it's genuine and from the heart and a message to your brother and all...but I was touched and laughed all at once.

When you held up that sad plastic spoon and broken spatula I about fell off my chair.

I'm going to have to think about the many black swan moments in my life and if at this point in time I could look at them much more humorously.

But what made you think, 'hey, it's been a year?'

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[info]logan607
2007-08-15 02:16 pm UTC (link)
hahahaha - thanks. There are others. I was recording a lot that week just to remember things because I knew I'd forget.

I was thinking about it all because I remember anniversaries AND I spoke to her just last week about the cats and she mentioned that her lease was up so I thought, Wow, has it been a year?

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[info]kastinkerbell
2007-08-15 03:50 pm UTC (link)
You say "I don't see how this can get worse."
Did it? I mean, of course it did, it's a crazy up and down ride...but did it?
I know for certain that it got better!

That's a great video. You should work that scenario into your next episode of 72nd to Canal--which is coming out when? :)

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[info]logan607
2007-08-15 04:14 pm UTC (link)
Oh it got a lot worse. A lot. But then it got better and now I'm totally fine - as you know.

I guess I could post why later.

Yes, we should work in such a scenario - but Rain and I are both swamped with our personal and work lives. Soon!

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[info]kastinkerbell
2007-08-15 04:16 pm UTC (link)
I guess that's a better excuse than "I have to wait for my hair to grow out."

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[info]veijukka
2007-08-15 10:53 pm UTC (link)
You really are terribly cute, you know that? You even do break-up cute.

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[info]logan607
2007-08-16 05:24 am UTC (link)
Shucks...

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[info]meandmarie
2007-08-16 03:35 am UTC (link)
This entry and video reminded me of the movie True Lies when Tom Arnold was talking about his recent divorce and he said

"When she left the house she took the ice cube trays. What kind of cold heartless bitch takes the ice cube trays"

I am glad you are in a better place now with your own silverware I hope.

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[info]logan607
2007-08-16 05:25 am UTC (link)
Man, I love that film. I don't remember the scene though - I'll have to watch it again.

I've always had the biggest crush on Jamie Lee Curtis.

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[info]meandmarie
2007-08-16 02:50 pm UTC (link)
She was pretty hot in that movie if I remember correctly!

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[info]logan607
2007-08-16 06:01 am UTC (link)
Oh, and yes, I have my own silverware. Thank you much for the sentiment.

=)

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(Anonymous)
2007-08-16 04:56 am UTC (link)
you are uber-narcissist. 'life is good' when you know it's not. hypocrite to boot.

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[info]logan607
2007-08-16 05:28 am UTC (link)
Well, I can't speak for your life but I hope it's good. Mine's good, for now. I dunno how long that'll last but, eh, I'll take what I can.

As for the hypocrite, well, that's just your opinion and that means little me, I'm afraid.

Thanks for caring enough to read and comment though.

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[info]prodigallyyours
2007-08-20 12:11 am UTC (link)
you know I must've left some of the greatest kitchen gadgets at my ex's. I must've spent hundreds of dollars and he doesn't know how the heck they work! what a shame.

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[info]logan607
2007-08-20 04:48 am UTC (link)
You've gotta get them - if only because I'm thinking, Why am I the only guy stuck with the plastic fork and spatula?

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[info]prodigallyyours
2007-08-20 04:52 am UTC (link)
I wish, the travel cost to get them back are not worth it. No matter how kick ass they are.

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[info]logan607
2007-08-20 04:59 am UTC (link)
Oh man...so unfair...

Hey - you posted. OK, a deal's a deal. I'm gonna add.

Try to write every day or at least every other day. It makes you a dramatically better writer if you pay attention to how it comes across.

I'll be reading and commenting. =)

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[info]unenuitblanche
2007-09-06 02:50 am UTC (link)
i just saw this post now. i didn't know you went through that... very nice vid. though - i like hearing you speak and looking at your cute self.. i nice difference from reading. when i left my ex i took my kitchen stuff back but it wasn't like the whole set of spoons/forks/knives drama like that. i get cheapo ones from the $1 store anyway.. i love your posts.

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