logan607 ([info]logan607) wrote,
@ 2007-06-26 01:38:00
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Entry tags:love, loyalty, regret

My biggest fan / My definition

Thanks for all the comments to my last post - I found them really interesting. It's nice because I never know who reads this.

I meant to post this a while ago but I thought it was too long. It's my definition:

When I was 15, my best friend, Kevin, told me that my girl Diana cheated on me. We never spoke, I just shut her out. Stupid kid stuff.

Maybe a decade later, I drove by her home and, for some reason, I rang her doorbell. I expected her to slap me when she answered the door; instead, she let me in, gave me a smile and an apron. She had this huge bar of chocolate that she told me to chop for cookies.

So I went in and started chopping.

After a bit, I asked her, half-jokingly, what happened between us.

She stopped and answered:

You listened to Kevin but we both know that he was the first guy to ask me out after we broke up. So that makes you an idiot. I never cheated on you, you know that. I was your biggest fan. That makes me an idiot. You never stood up for me and I didn't understand why, because I was kind to you. I was on your side but you weren't on mine.

Why weren't you?


I had no answer. Almost twenty years after the fact, I still have no answer. I don't remember anything else but I remember what she said.

That conversation started me off in being who I am now. In fact, I learned the phrases biggest fan and on your side that day.

It's why I'm always loyal.

You see, she doesn't know, but I still wonder if No. 7 ever found that job under the California sun; I wanna call her office someday and hear that message that says she's left the company she hates.

And I still wonder if Diana bought that ranch in Colorado that she dreamt of and has kids to help her make cookies. I wouldn't know, though.

I never saw her again.

But I hope she got it all.

As for me, I'm waiting for someone to be on my side again.

Music: But until then I'll do just fine on my own
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[info]stickles
2007-06-26 06:26 am UTC (link)
That's a pretty good definition.

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[info]logan607
2007-06-26 08:35 pm UTC (link)
I like it.

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[info]turtle5485
2007-06-26 06:30 am UTC (link)
i think we'll always wonder- at least you got to that point where you wanted her to be happy.

i want someone to be on my side again too, just as much as i am on theirs. i'm considering running instead of waiting.

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[info]logan607
2007-06-26 08:35 pm UTC (link)
Let me know how it goes for you?

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[info]slurpee
2007-06-26 08:17 am UTC (link)
i like this entry. :)

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[info]logan607
2007-06-26 08:35 pm UTC (link)
Good - I was thinking of not posting it due to length but I'm glad I did.

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[info]ml917
2007-06-26 03:56 pm UTC (link)
I think you have a lot of people on your side. But people usually don't see it until they're ready.

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[info]logan607
2007-06-26 08:36 pm UTC (link)
It's all a question of degree; everyone wants the happy easy times. The other times are the ones that count.

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[info]sometimessome
2007-06-26 04:31 pm UTC (link)
More related to yesterday when I didn't respond, but still appropriate; I don't think you ever write too much. Although I'm sort of wordy myself so...not a great judge.

I like this. I like when you write like this, because it's like I see myself in your words. And it's sweet. It's nice to know that there are boys out there that over-think relationships and worry about girls. It always seems like I'm the only one.

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[info]logan607
2007-06-26 08:37 pm UTC (link)
Hopeless romantic, me...

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[info]anf322
2007-06-26 08:41 pm UTC (link)
pleasant entry...i like. =D have a wonderful week!

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[info]logan607
2007-06-26 10:43 pm UTC (link)
Thank you, I will try.

If you ever win another contest, keep me in mind as an accessory. I go with most everything.

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[info]anf322
2007-06-26 11:48 pm UTC (link)
HAHA, alright Logan, I'll keep you in mind. It was my first time winning anything big! Hopefully more big surprises to come. =D

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